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qualified was to spend some time round about in these parts and have meetings, a number of them would come forward in the way of Truth.

12th. We have had two meetings to-day; and it is admirable how strength is given to go through the service, which is sometimes very laborious. Meetings sometimes hold three hours or more, and the sweat rolls from me till my shirt might be wrung. Next morning, we set out for Pownalborough, and after having several meetings, we attended the select meeting at Vassalborough on the 19th, and next day the monthly meeting. After that we were industriously engaged in holding meetings, some of which held near four hours, and yet the people behaved well, and were quiet to my admiration, especially considering the very warm weather and the crowded houses. On first-day, the 24th, we had two meetings, between which I received a letter from my wife, giving account of the decease of our dear babe, about six months old. Although she is gone from a world of troubles to a state of everlasting rest and peace, yet nature has its ties, and no doubt it should be so, when kept within proper bounds: but it is a brave thing to say on such occasions, Thy will be done.

28th. We have had meetings steadily, every day. Many are convinced of the Truth; whether they will come forward to the acknowledgment thereof, we must leave: we know the increase is of God. Oh! how unwilling many are to take up the cross,-to take the cup of suffering and to be baptized with the holy Spirit. Nature shrinks; it draws back: altho' we know there is no other way to reign with Christ, but so far as we die to sin, are buried with him by

baptism into death, our wills nailed to the cross, and by the circumcising power of Truth, every desire that is out of, or contrary to, the will of God, cut off: for surely the highest anthem we can sing is, Thy will, O Father, be done. Sometimes, when the transcendent excellency of a will-less state appears, Oh! how strong are my desires to attain thereunto,to have no will distinct from or out of the will of God, to feel no power to think, speak, or act, but what comes from him, that he in all things may be glorified. And he is not, neither can he be glorified by us, any further than he rules and acts in us. If the Lord Jesus could do nothing of himself as a man, how much less can we who have fallen so far short of the glory of God!

By way of Portland, I went to the Quarterly meeting held at Berwick; thence to Lynn and Salem, and so to the monthly meeting held at Almsbury, having Micajah Collins with me as a companion. At Salem I also visited a number of families, making my home at my kind friend Mathew Purinton's. After being industriously engaged in attending meetings and in family visits, I came to Henniker and Weare in the latter end of the 9th month. In those places and in neighbourhoods around them, I had ten meetings; three of which were quite out from among Friends. They were precious seasons; the Lord's living power and presence were felt, and the testimony of Truth was exalted over and above all types, shadows, and lifeless forms and ceremonies. The people were mostly entire strangers to Friends; and notwithstanding the meetings held near four hours each, and a considerable number of small children were there, yet they were remarkably quiet opportuni

ties. Several of the principal men of the town attended, and one who was a justice of the peace was much tendered. There appeared to be an open door in these parts for hearing gospel Truths, as much so as I have lately known, without interruption of any kind. Although I have had seasons of deep poverty in this land, yet I have also known as glorious riches as I ever experienced. But I have learned that it is best, in times of mourning and want, to keep the sackcloth underneath, and at other times of abounding, to wear my best garments frugally. By a medium of this kind, we are kept from undue depression of spirits, on the one hand, and from raptures or transports on the other. For so sure as any are arrayed with the King's robe, and put on the King's horse, they must alight, stand on the ground again, and have the robe taken off: all this is in wisdom. I have sometimes thought, that some have made their way through life more gloomy than it would have been, by suffering their minds, in seasons of favour, to be too much elated. Through adorable goodness, mercy and love, I have known a willingness wrought in me to return to the King's gate, as a place of safety, where we are less likely to forget ourselves than in times of sumptuous fare.

10th mo. 7th. I left Weare in New Hampshire, and in two days reached Sharon in Vermont, where I had two meetings among the few Friends and others there: thence, having two meetings on the way, we went to Grand Isle in lake Champlain, attended their week-day meeting, and so on to Peru, where we had two meetings and visited a number of families. Then, crossing the lake again, we arrived at Ferrisburg on the 20th, and after taking meetings in those parts of

Vermont, came to the Quarterly meeting at Easton in the 11th month. Thence to Greenfield, a newly settled place about thirty miles westward, where I was at two meetings; and, having another meeting at East Greenfield on the way, I returned to Saratoga monthly meeting.

11th mo. 20th. Attended Easton monthly meeting, and next day that at Queensbury; thence to a little meeting about fifteen miles further north, near lake George. From this place I bent my way homeward, where I arrived about the 1st of 12th month, 1800, to the mutual joy of myself, my family and friends.

Of the two following years of Hugh Judge's life, there does not appear to have been any account kept by way of a journal. From a few letters written by him during this period, we learn that he passed through some very close trials in relation to his temporal affairs, and the support of his large family. In the 6th mo. 1801, he addressed a letter to his friends John Kendall and wife, of Mill Creek, Lancaster county, Pennsylvania; in which he says, "I often feel you near, in that which knoweth no change. Although we have not the opportunity of personal converse, yet as we are endeavouring to follow our holy Leader, I trust we shall not forget each other, though far separated in body, but something will be known of what the apostle says of being present in the spirit, serving the Lord; and in serving him there is great delight. Let us then endeavour to live near him in spirit; for he remains to be the Rock and stay of all who trust in him; and he has never failed any of these, nor never will. He is indeed the

mighty helper of his people; and although trials attend us in this probationary state, even some of a very close nature, yet as we endeavour to keep the faith and to abide in the patience, all these sorrows and troubles will flee away, as the chaff before the wind. May nothing ever be able to separate us from the love of God: and let us bear in remembrance, that the crown is at the end of the race"

In the autumn of this year, New York was again visited with sickness which was very mortal: Hugh Judge's health also became impaired; and this, with some other concerns both of a civil and religious nature, induced him to take a journey during the 9th and 10th months as far as Baltimore; his daughter Susanna accompanying him. In this tour he attended a number of meetings, some of which were appointed by his friend Richard Mott, who was out on a religious visit southward. He also visited his friends about Brandywine and Wilmington, and attended the Yearly Meeting held in Baltimore; soon after which, he returned to his family in New York.

About this time his son Thomas removed to Baltimore, in order to get into business in that mercantile city. In a letter from his deeply exercised father, dated in the 12th month, 1801, are these emphatic expressions: "My dear child, my prayers are day and night for thee. Keep steady and sober in every part of thy conduct, as this is the only thing thou hast now to recommend thee." A few days after he wrote thus: "We have just received accounts from Ireland, giving information that our worthy friend Gervas Johnson is removed from works to rewards. A happy and blessed change to him, no doubt; for he served God in his generation, and has

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