And I must twist my little gift of words | Dear friend, if any man I wished to Into a scourge of rough and knotted cords Unmusical, that whistle as they swing To leave on shameless backs their purple sting. please, 'T were surely you whose humor's honied ease Flows flecked with gold of thought, whose generous mind Sees Paradise regained by all mankind, How slow Time comes! Gone, who so Whose brave example still to vanward shines, Checks the retreat, and spurs our lagging I mount no longer when the trumpets call; My battle-harness idles on the wall, The spider's castle, camping-ground of dust, Not without dints, and all in front, I trust. Shivering sometimes it calls me as it hears Afar the charge's tramp and clash of spears; But 't is such murmur only as might be The sea-shell's lost tradition of the sea, That makes me muse and wonder Where? and When? While from my cliff I watch the waves of men That climb to break midway their seeming gain, And think it triumph if they shake their chain. Little I ask of Fate; will she refuse Some days of reconcilement with the Muse? I take my reed again and blow it free Of dusty silence, murmuring, "Sing to me!" And, as its stops my curious touch retries, The stir of earlier instincts I surprise, Instincts, if less imperious, yet more strong, And happy in the toil that ends with Not whiter than the thoughts that housed below! And, ah, what absence feel I at my side, Like Dante when he missed his laurelled guide, What sense of diminution in the air Once so inspiring, Emerson not there! But life is sweet, though all that makes it sweet Lessen like sound of friends' departing feet, And Death is beautiful as feet of friend Coming with welcome at our journey's end; For me Fate gave, whate'er she else denied, A nature sloping to the southern side; Such natures double-darken gloomy skies. more, Of good and beautiful embarked before; With bits of wreck I patch the boat shall bear Me to that unexhausted Otherwhere, Whose friendly-peopled shore I sometimes see, By soft mirage uplifted, beckon me, one. Moulded of mind-mist that broad day d.spels, Here in these shadowy woods and brooklulled dells. Have no heaven-habitants e'er felt a void In hearts sublimed with ichor unalloyed? E'er longed to mingle with a mortal fate Intense with pathos of its briefer date? Could she partake, and live, our human stains? Even with the thought there tingles through my veins Sense of unwarned renewal ; I, the dead, That sets my senses from their winter free, Dancing like naked fauns too glad for shame. Her passion, purified to palest flame, (Or what of it was palpably divine High-kirtled for the chase, and what was | Flicker and fade away to dull eclipse As down to mine she deigns her longedfor lips; shown, Of maiden rondure, like the rose halfblown. If dream, turn real! If a vision, stay! Take mortal shape, my philtre's spell obey! If hags compel thee from thy secret sky With gruesome incantations, why not I, Whose only magic is that I distil A potion, blent of passion, thought, and will, Deeper in reach, in force of fate more rich, Than e'er was juice wrung by Thessalian witch Sure she hath heard my prayer and granted half, As Gods do who at mortal madness laugh. Yet if life's solid things illusion seem, Why may not substance wear the mask of dream? In sleep she comes; she visits me in dreams, And, as her image in a thousand streams, So in my veins, that her obey, she sees, Floating and flaming there, her images Bear to my little world's remotest zone Glad messages of her, and her alone. With silence-sandalled Sleep she comes And as her neck my happy arms enfold, Flooded and lustred with her loosened gold, She whispers words each sweeter than a kiss: Then, wakened with the shock of sudden bliss, My arms are empty, my awakener fled, And, silent in the silent sky o'erhead, But coldly as on ice-plated snow, she gleams, Herself the mother and the child of dreams. VI. Gone is the time when phantasms could appease My quest phantasmal and bring cheated ease; When, if she glorified my dreams, I felt Through all my limbs a change immortal melt At touch of hers ill minate with soul. Not long could I be stilled with Fancy's dole; Too soon the mortal mixture in me caught Red fire from her celestial fame, and fought For tyrannous control in all my veins: My fool's prayer was accepted; what remains? Or was it some eidolon merely, sent By her who rules the shades in banishment, To mock me with her semblance? Were it thus, How 'scape I shame, whose will was traitorous? |