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be necessary to bring all those causes and scholar," thus reduced, his friend into due operation We are not to asked him to share the homely supexpect that the great movements of per of his family that evening. He society will take effect suddenly, or came, and, cheered by the air of comthat the mischiefs inflicted on our fort and cordiality of welcome, got incommerce by years of suspended in to tolerable spirits, fought all liis battercourse can be instantly redressed tles o'er again, and, in the sequel, when the intercourse is re-opened. proved so entertaining, that the inviSuch a radical derangement in the tation, first given out of compassionate vital parts of the system leaves con- kindness, was warmly renewed, in sequences behind it, which are not hopes of hearing more of details at so soon recovered, It is under these once so authentic and interesting. consequences that we are now suffer. This new Ulysses possessed the få. ing, and, while this state of things culty of reciting the tale of his woes continues, the prosperity of the coun- and wanderings with that simple elotry will be retarded. Our merchants, quence which adds the interest excitanxious to push into new channels of ed by the narrator to that awakened commerce, and to relieve themselves by the narration. His friend, who is from a load of unsaleable goods, will very acute, and better informed than run into ruinous adventures. Bank- is usual with persons in his station, ruptcies will take place --alarms will duly appreciated the purity and precioccasionally shake the mercantile sion of his style, and observed, that it community, and embarrassments and was a great pity he had not kept a a scarcity of cash will be generally journal of these occurrences. complained of. But peace, we may be do you know that I have not?” said assured, will in time produce its pro- the soldier; and the next day he sent per fruits. If the world remain tran- his friend a handful of papers, as a quil, the former relations will certain- specimen of his journal, which, it ly revive between commercial coun- seems, he had kept pretty regularly, tries, and commerce, blighted by war this being the only manner in which and violence, will yet recover and flou- the lingering love of letters, which no rish in the congenial climate of secu- misery could extinguish, found a vent. rity and peace.

These fragments were written on odd scraps of paper of various kinds, but, under every disadvantage, the clearness, conciseness, and modesty of the style, and the importance of the e

vents in which he acted a very suborSome three months since, a decent dinate part, powerfully arrested attentradesman was taking a walk on the tion. His friend was no less pleased Calton Hill. He observed a man than surprised. He made haste to working among the stones rather awk- show the papers to gentlemen on wardly, like a person not much accus whose judgment he thought he could tomed to that kind of labour. He depend. They highly approved of stood for a little observing hiin, till at the style in which the journal was length the stranger, litting up his written, and, upon diligent inquiry head, displayed the countenance of an among officers who had been in the old school-fellow, whom he perfectly same service, were confirmed in their remembered as the object of envy and opinion of the authenticity of the deemulation among his companions. tails. His friend was delighted with “What brought you here, Tom, and the prospect of seeing a happy termiwhere have you been this dreary nation to the soldier's adventures, in length of time?” The soldier, for consequence of the notice which a such it seems he was, answered, that publication of his narrative might exhe had been fighting the battles of cite among such as had it in their his country in many parts of the power to patronize him. All these world, and, being now discharged, visions of felicity, however, were dishad no resource but common labour. persed, by the reception of a letter Much concerned at seeing one, who containing the remainder of the hapwas considered in his school-clays as less soldier's journal, which exhibits likely to attain, by his talents and such a simple picture of blasted hopes, acquirements, the rank of“ gentleman and a mind utterly subdued by long





suffering, that it will interest all who strictly styled the people,--that class, can distinguish more truly in the respectable though humble, among natural language of hopeless depres- which the features of national characsion, than in the highest wrought de- ter are still to be found unchanged. scription, what a man suffers who Thomas --, for he does not dearly loves the land he must leave, mention his sirname, as he says, from perhaps for ever. Here it follows: motives of delicacy, was born in Edin

burgh about 1793. We shall give " Edinburgh, May 1818.

the beginning of his story in his own " Dear John,--These three months I

words. can find nothing to do. I am a burden on Jeanie and her husband, (his sister and bro “I was born of poor but respectable ther-in-law.) I wish I was a soldier a. parents, in Edinburgh, who bestowed upon gain. I cannot even get labouring work. me an education superior to my rank in God will bless those, I hope, who have life. It was their ambition to educate me been good to n.e. I have seen my folly. for one of the learned professions ; my I would be useful, but can get nothing to mother wishing me to be a clergyman, my do. My mother is at her rest ; God re father to be a writer. They kept from ceive her soul! I will go to South Americ themselves many comforts, that I might ca. Maria de Parides will put me in a way appear genteel at school : my brothers and to do for myself, and be a burden to no sister did not appear to belong to the same

Or, I shall go to Spain, and live in family. My parents had three children, Boho. I will go to Buenos Ayres. Fare two boys and a girl, besides myself. On well! John, this is all I have to leave you. me alone was lavished all their care. My It is your's; do with it as you think pro- brothers, John and William, could read per. If I succeed in the South, I will re and write, and at the age of twelve years, turn, and lay my bones beside my parents ; were bound apprentices to trades. My if not, I will never come back."

sister, Jane, was made, at home, 3 servant

of all-work, to assist my mother. I alone His friend, on receiving this letter, was a gentleman in a house of poverty.” sought for him with anxious diligence, but could hear nothing of him.

There is something very striking in Finding, however, that a vessel from this last expression, that reverence for Leith had sailed for Buenos Ayres a- every appearance of talent, that ambi, bout that time, he takes it for grant- tion to cultivate it, which could ined that the hard fated adventurer has duce, not merely the parents, but the gone there to try once more the friend whole family, to submit to severe priship and compassion of strangers. We vations for the sake of this favoured have treated our readers as those that individual, form a picture of life and delight in the perusal of ordinary no

manners not unfrequent in Scotland, vels are apt to treat their favourite but rarely to be met with in any other authors, that is, revealed the conclu- country. His father, however, from sion before entering on the narrative ; sickness, and otirer misfortunes, soon not entirely without design, because became unable to support him in the the uaked sal reality, so evident, same ease and comfort with which his in this dividing asunder of soul and education had been begun. He became spirit, that a warm hearted and

discontented in consequence; and,

poetical Scotchman feels at parting, in falling in with some acquaintances hopeless anguish, from the home to who had formed themselves into a which he had so long looked forward spouting-club, he came to the resoluas a harbour of peace: Those feelings tion, in spite of the remonstrances of of a desolate heart, we say, are so un

his parents, of going on the stage. like the conclusion of a ficticious story, We must give the result of this adwhich is always wound up by some venture, too, in his own language. striking event, that it affords an additional pledge of the authenticity of

I had, through the interference of my the narrative of which we are going to Manager of the Theatre at Edinburgh,

new acquaintances, got introduced to the give a sketch,-a meagre one, indeed, who was pleased with my manner and apas being rather intended to awaken pearance. The day was tired on which I than to gratify curiosity. We enter was to make my trial. I had now attained the more willingly on this task, as the the summit of my first ambition. I had story affords a beautiful illustration of not the most distant doubt of my success. the Scottish character, such as it ex Universal applause, crowded houses, and ists among that class which may be wealth, all danced before my imagination.

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Intoxicated with joy, I went home to my

fled. In that moment of bitter agony and parents. Never shall the agony of their shame, my punishment commenced. I looks be e:raced from my memory. My trembled ; a cold sweat vozed through mother's grief was loud and heart-rending, every pore ; my father and mother's words but my father's harrowed up my very rung in my ears ; my senses became consoul. It was the look of despair—the ex- fused-hisses began from the audiencepression of his blasted prospects he had so I utterly failed. From the confusion of long looked forward to, with hopes and my mind, I could not even comprehend the joy,—hopes, that had supported him in all place in which I stood. To conclude, I his toil and privations, crushed in the dust. shrunk unseen from the theatre, bewilderIt was too much ; his eyes at length fille ed, and in a state of despair.” with tears, and, raising them to heaven, he only said, or rather groaned, “ God, thy

After wandering about all night, he ways are just and wise-thou hast seen it met in the morning with a party necessary to punish my foolish partiality of recruits, rashly enlisted with and pride. But, o God! forgive che in them, and embarked at Leith for the strument of my punishment.' Must ( Isle of Wight. After describing the confess, I turned upon my heel and said, effects of the morning air, and the with the most cool indifference, ( so much beautiful prospect in the Firth in rehad the indulgence of my former life blunt.

storing his sensibility, he says, ed my feelings towards my parents,) “When I am courted and praised by all, “ I had not yet exchanged words with and have made you independent, you will any of my fellow-recruits ; I now inquired think otherwise of my choice.' Never, of the sergeant, to what regiment i had never,' he replied, " you bring my grey engaged myself ? His answer was, 6 To hairs with sorrow to the grave.'_ Thomas, the gallant 7 1st ; you are a noble lad, and Thomaz, you will have our deaths to an

shall be an officer. He ran on in this fulswer for,' was all that my mother could some cant for some time. I heard him say ;-cars and sobs choked her utter

Tantallon and the Bass were only

a little way from us ; we were quickly “ [ was immoveable in my resolves. leaving behind all that was dear to me, The bills were printed, and I had given and all I ought to regret. The shores of my word. This was the last time I ever

Lothian had vanished; we had passed saw them both. The scene has embittered Dunbar; I was seized with a sudden a. all my former days, and still haunts me gitation ; a menacing voice seemed to ask, in all my hours of thought. Often, like an • What do you here? What is to become avenging spirit, it starts up in my most of your parents ?' The blood forsook my tranquil hours, and deprives me of my heart: a delirium followed, and I fell on peace. Often, in the dead of night, when the deck.”. on duty, a solitary centinel, has it wrung from my breast a groan of remorse.

He lay under deck in a kind of “ Scarce had I left the house, when a gloomy stupor, till he was startled in sensation of horror at what I had done Yarmouth Roads by a dreadful noise pierced my heart. I thought the echo of over head, caused by a storm. Death my steps sounded, ' You will have our seemed present to him, and he took deaths to answer for.'—I started, and shelter from its impending horrors in turned back to throw myself at the feet of prayer and good resolutions, one of my parents, and implore their forgiveness. which was, to expiate in some meaAlready I was at the door, when I met sure the sin of disobedience, by servone of my new acquaintances, who inquir. ing for seven years in the army. He ed what' detained me? I said, “I must took the usual oath when he arrived not go; my parents are against my going, in Ireland, and received Lill of and I am resolved to obey them.' He laughed at my weakness, as he called it. I bounty money, of which he laid out stood unmoved. Then, with an affected L. 4 for necessaries. It was the first scorn, he said I was afraid, conscious I money ever he could call his own : of was unable to perform what I had taken the remainder he sent L. 5 to his paupon me. Fired by his taunts, my good rents, with the following letter: resolves vanished, and I once more left my parents' door, resolved to follow the bent

Neroport Barracks, of my own inclinations.

Isle of Wight, July 1806. " I went to the theatre, and prepared for “ Father,-If a disobedient and unduti. my appearance. The house was crowded ful son may still address you by that dear

I came upon the stage with a and now much-valued name ;-and my fluttering heart, amidst universal silence. mother!--the blood forsakes my heart, and I bowed, and attempted to speak; my my hand refuses to move, when I think lips obeyed the impulse, but my voice had upon that unhallowed night I left your

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peaceful roof to follow my foolish and way. tion in which he was engaged. He ward inclinations. O, I have suffered, and

says, must ever suffer, for my guilty conduct. Pardon me! pardon me! I can hardly

“ After the firing commenced, a still hope-yet-o drive me not to despair! 1 sensation stole over my whole frame, a have doomed myself to seven years' punish

firm determined torpor, bordering on inment

. I made this choice in an hour of sensibility. I heard an old soldier answer, shame. I could not appear in Edinburgh

to a youth like myself, who inquired what after what had happened. Never shall 1

he should do during the battle, • Do your again do any thing to bring shame upon

duty.'' myself or you. The hope of your pardon

When Mount Video was stormed, and forgiveness alone sustains me. Again our soldier was left behind with the I implore pardon on my knees. Would I party who were to protect the camp. could lay my head at your feet ! then Shello fell fast among them. A young would I not rise till you pronounced my officer, running back and forward pardon, and raised to your embrace your in confusion, an old soldier said, wretched


with the gravity of a Turk, “You Soon after he set sail with the rest need not hide, Sir; if there is any of the regiment for South America, thing there for you, it will find you being engaged in the unfortunate ex

out. The young man on this stood pedition under General Auchmuty, of to his duty, and never after betrayed which he gives a full and very strik

symptoms of confusion.

They reing detail. He was, in the mean

mained here seven months, and our time, not at all popular among his young adventurer seems to have been fellow soldiers. Their ignorance and

fully awake to all the glories, of a tor

In that beautiful coungrossness was incompatible with his rid summer. acquired knowledge and consequent try they suffer no inconvenience but refinement, and they revenged his from heat; wanted for nothing, and shyness by calling him Saucy Tom

dwelt amidst such a luxury of fruit and the Methodist. He met, how- and flowers, that, had it not been for ever, with a brave Highlander, fully the pangs of wounded conscience, asas ignorant, but far more innocent, in sociated with the remembrance of his whose native goodness and affection parents, he might have been happy. ate heart he found some solace. Do

He was one of the youths appointed nald, however, will be best described to guard Sir Samuel Auchmuty, and by our narrator himself.

thus escaped fatiguing duty. He was

billetted on a young widow, (the Ma“ There was one of my fellow-soldiers, Donald M‘Donald, who seemed to take well letter,) who lived with an aged

ria de Parides, mentioned in his farepleasure in my company. tached to each other. He came up in the father, and who was very kind to him. same smack with myself : He was my

He deseribes the manners, dress, habed-fellow, and became my firm friend. bits, and superstitions of these people in Often would he get himself into alterca- such a manner, as none but an inmate tions on my account. Donald could read and among them could have done with ewrite. This was the sum of his education. qual accuracy; and the impression He was innocent, and ignorant of the left on the reader's mind of those sim. world; only 18 years of age, and had ple and ignorant, but well-meaning never been a night from home before he beings, is, upon the whole, favourleft his father's house, more than myself. able. To be a soldier was the height of his ambition. He had come from near Inverness

The natives, by which he seems to to Edinburgh on foot, with no other inten

mean the Indians, he describes as brution than to enlist in the 71st. His father

tish in their manners, and extravahad been a soldier in it, and was now liv. gantly indolent. Our soldier was an ing at home after being discharged. Do object of kindly solicitude to the good nald called it his regiment, and would not people with whom he lived, which they have taken the bounty from any other.” shewed in earnest, though gentle en

deavours to convert him. Here folHe proceeds to describe his voyage, lows an account of their painful march the impression made on him by Ma through woods and morasses, and of deira and the Cape of Good Hope, that fatal action in which General and, finally, their arrival at Maldona- Whitelock, with a most unaccountado, and what he felt in the first ac- ble infatuation, ordered them to at

tack the town of Monte Video with your sorrows by any reflection upon what out ammunition, and with bayonets is past, as you are now sensible of your foronly; the soldiers murmured and said mer faults, and the cruelty of your deserthey were betrayed; the sequel is but tion. Let it be a lesson to you in future. too well known. Thomas and his com

It had nearly been our deaths. Your mopanions were forced to surrender, and ther, brothers, and myself, searched in e. conveyed to prison. A hundred of very quarter that night you left us ; but it

pleased God we should not find you. Had them were afterwards marched out

we only known you were alive, we would and condemned to be shot, unless they have been happy. We praise God you are would surrender up a golden crucifix safe, and send you our forgiveness and taken from a church, and supposed to be blessings. The money you have sert we concealed among them. It was of great mean to assist to purchase your discharge, value, and the ferocious appearance if you will leave the army and come to us of the Spaniards and Indians was very again. You say you have made a vow to terrible. The crucifix was found on remain seven years. It was rash to do so, theground, and they were marched back if you have vowed solemnly. Write us on in safety. A good priest visited him receipt of this, that I may know what in prison, and after being convinced

course to pursue.-Your loving parent.” that his conversion was hopeless, said, The brother's letter, alas! contains “I have done my duty as a priest, and an affecting account of this good man's will now do it as a man,” and daily death. brought him some comforts without

“ He received your letter two days before further mentioning religion. Donald, liis death. He was, at the time, propped up the fidus Achates of our soldier, was in bed." -“Heopened it himself; and, as he happy, caressed and quite at home a- read, his face beamed with joy, and the tears mong the Spaniards, being, like most ran down his cheeks: Gallant, unfortunate of the Macdonalds of Lochaber, a Ca- boy, may God bless and forgive you as I do.' tholic. On leaving the country, bis He gave me the letter to read to my mother new friends were most willing to de- aloud. While I read it, he scemed to pray tain him, and he was, persuaded to fervently. He then desired me to write to his heart by singing “ Jochaber no under cover of this. Your mother is well

, stay; But Thomas found the way to you as he would dictate. This letter was

returned to us again. I now send it you more.” The tears started into his eyes; and sends you her blessings ; but wishes he said, “No, no, Ill not stay; I'll you to leave the army, and come home. maybe return to Lochaber no more.' The money you sent just now, and the The good priest was disappointed, say-, five pounds before, will purchase your dising, however, with a visible pang, charge.' It is natural; I once lov'd Spain a Deeply sorrowing for the consebove all other places in the world.” quences of his imprurlence, Thomas He gave them his blessing and ten embarked for Spain with Sir Arthur doubloons each at parting.

Wellesley, fought at Vimeira, surveyThey returned to Ireland after ed the beauties of Cintra with the eye seventeen months absence; he felt of taste, and mourned over its fatal his return with a chastened joy, and convention. Speaking of the different earnestly ejaculated his thanks for conduct of the French and English preservation through so many dangers, at Vimeira, he says, " In our first shocked, at the same time, with the charge I found my mind waver. A riots and dissipation with which the breathless sensation came over me, rest testified their joy on the occa- the silence was appalling. I looked asion. He wrote home a letter, and sent longst the line, it was enough to asthe amount of the ten doubloons he sure me: the steady determined scowl of received from the good priest. He my companions assured my heart, and received an answer from his brother, gave me determination. How unlike inclosing his father's reply to his first the noisy advance of the French,” letter, which affords such an admi- &c. The whole account of the camrable specimen of humble worth and paign in Portugal is given with the good feeling, that we are tempted to force and vivacity natural to one to insert it, though our extracts are al- whom such scenes were new, and beready exceeding the due limits.

held with feeling, firmness, and intel“ Dear Thomas,–We received your let- ligence. The campaign in Spain, folter from the Isle of Wight, which gave us lowed by the retreat under General much pleasure. I do not mean to add to Sir John Moore, is given with painful

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