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VIII.

Who let us go among the high, the proud,
To earn the bread that men alone should earn,
Lending our pliant natures to be bowed

To warping-forced to learn

IX.

Man's hard endurance bare of his hard strength,
The policy of men without man's power
Of wide-out-branching thought,-until at length
We get, for only dower,

X.

Knowledge unfit for woman's household wants,
Feelings too hard for woman's tender state,
The aching head-the aching heart, that pants
For comfort; but must wait . . ..

XI.

Well, when I came to work for teacher's wages,
The children of his house were those I taught:-
My life was fragmented to endless stages
Of alternating thought

XII.

And act, to accomplish duty, win regard

And credit. . . . Through the months I paled and paled; And, partly that he thought my lot was hard,

Partly that I regaled

XIII.

His sense of interest-I 'a little woman,

Who,' as I heard he phrased it, seemed all fire, Teaching and studying, almost superhuman

In energy to aspire

XIV.

After the unattainable mastery

Demanding manhood'-he would come and stand,
And watch me, address me, even flutter me
By proffer of his hand

XV.

At parting. Then he showed a noble soul

More ways than one; and kindliness, thereto,

Silently edged Regard past all control

To Love. Could woman do

Other than thus?

XVI.

You think she could? Go to!

Have you beheld the glory of his eyes

When they flash blame on wickedness? Have you
Measured his by the size

XVII.

Of other souls? I tell you he excels

The multitude of human things as far

As Christ's miraculous shames a wizard's spells !—
He above shame as are

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The little pale-faced woman could have proved—
How wistful of his comfort and delight-
How her wild love would twine and twine, being loved,
And climb, being trained aright.

XX.

But he must go! Has he a loss as well?

I dare affirm it !-Has he found his match? No! No! A thousand times! My heart can tell, My brain can faintly catch,

XXI.

The lowering dawn on broken ruins of life
Rising for him (with tenfold misery
For me, who know he has missed to find a wife
More good for him than she

XXII.

Has soul for being). I dimly see the sequel
Of gathering, greatening trouble on his face,—
His heart's deep-seated truth being all unequal
To palter to her grace

XXIII.

Of fair-faced shallowness. And I must go,—
Must stifle in the quick bewildering hum
Of life, must grieve,-must labour,-must forego,-
Must let what will come, come.

LONDON'S HEART.

BY B. L. FARJEON, AUTHOR OF 'GRIF,' 'JOSHUA MARVEL,' AND 'BLADE-O'-GRASS.'

CHAPTER XXXV.

MR. PODMORE WISHES TO BE INSTRUCTED UPON THE DOCTRINE OF RESPONSIBILITY, AND DECLARES THAT HE HAS A PRESENTIMENT.

EVENTFUL as this night had been to Lily, and destined as it was to live for ever in her memory, it was pregnant with yet deeper meaning for her future, and an event was to occur which was to draw closer together the links of the chain of pure and unworthy love which bound her. On this night she saw clearly what before had been but dimly presentable to her. She saw that Felix loved her; and also that Mr. Sheldrake had a passion for her. She was instinctively conscious that there was nothing in common in the sentiments of these two men. Their feelings for her were as wide apart as were their characters; and she had already estimated these correctly, although she did not realise the depth of baseness from which Mr. Sheldrake's passion sprung. She was too pure and innocent for that.

When the party left for the theatre, Old Wheels found the time pass slowly enough, although he was to some extent comforted by the knowledge that Felix had gone to watch over his devoted girl. For the purpose of whiling away a few minutes, he went up to Gribble junior's room, and found that worthy man and his wife working cheerfully as usual. Gribble junior's Gribble junior's father, the victim of coöperative

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stores, was sitting in a nursing the baby, and had as usual been descanting upon the evils of coöperation, when Old Wheels entered. Mr. and Mrs. Gribble junior were laughing heartily at something their father had just uttered.

'What do you think we're laughing at, Mr. Wheels ?' asked Gribble junior, as the old man sat down.

Old Wheels expressed a desire to be enlightened.

Father just said,' explained Gribble junior, 'that he supposed they would be trying next to bring babies into the world by coöperation.'

At which, of course, the laughter recommenced.

'Why not?' grumbled Gribble senior. You can buy pap at the stores, and you can buy coffins. Mind, John, when I'm dead, get my coffin made by an honest tradesman. If you was to buy one at a coöperative store, I shouldn't rest in my grave.'

'Time enough for that, father,' replied Gribble junior, in a business-like tone, and yet with affection; 'you're good for twenty years yet, I hope and trust.'

'I should be, John, if trade was allowed to go on in a proper way. But coöperation 'll be the death of me long before my proper time.'

'My girl's gone to the theatre,' observed Old Wheels, to change the subject.

'It'll do her good,' said Mrs. Gribble; 'she's been looking pale of late.'

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'I'm going to take father to the Music Hall to-night,' said Gribble junior. 'He's never been to one. You see, Mr. Wheels, what I complain of in father is, that he won't keep moving.'

'It's too late, John; it's too late. My joints are stiff'

'Perhaps so, but there's no occasion to make 'em stiffer. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. Go in for everything, I say-go in for work, and go in for play; and keep moving. How do you think baby's looking, Mr. Wheels?'

Old Wheels pinched the baby's cheek, and said gaily that the cooperative store couldn't turn out a baby like that.

'Do you hear that, father?' cried Mrs. Gribble junior, with a merry laugh. Do you hear that?'

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Mr. Wheels is quite right,' replied Gribble senior, faithful to his theories; 'it ain't likely that anything good and wholesome can come out of coöperation.'

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'How's trade, Mr. Gribble?' 'Well, it's no use grumbling, but it ain't as good as it should be. had an idea yesterday, though. It was raining, you know, and I had no jobs on hand. The hospital ain't as full as it ought to be. I went out in the rain yesterday with three new umbrellas under my arm, and one over my head. What for, now? you'll ask. To sell 'em? no ; people never buy umbrellas in rainy weather of their own accord; they always wait for a fine day. No; I had an idea, and I carried it out in this way. I saw a respectable man, with an umbrella over his head that wanted mending. I followed him home, and just as he knocked at his door, I went up to him, and said I was an umbrella-maker, and would like the job of mending his umbrella." But I've only got this one," he said, "and I want to go out again." "I'm prepared for that, sir," I said; "here's my card, and

here's a new umbrella as good as yours. I'll leave this with you to use till I bring back your own, properly mended." He was tickled at the idea, and was more tickled when I told him that, trade being slack, I had come out on purpose to look out for umbrellas that wanted mending. "You're an industrious fellow," he said, with a laugh. "Yes, sir," I answered, "if work won't come to you, you must go to work. Keep moving, that's my motto. If you can't get work, make it." Well, he gave me his secondhand umbrella, and took my new one. In this way, in less than three hours, I got rid of my four new umbrellas, and got four jobs. I took them back this afternoon, and- would you believe it, Mr. Wheels?-not only did I get paid well for the jobs, but two of the gentlemen bought two of my new umbrellas, and said I deserved to be encouraged. And I think I am,' added Gribble junior, complacently. 'I made a good job of that idea, and I daresay it'll bring me in some money. You see, an umbrella is such an awkward thing to get mended, when it's out of order. Not one person out of twenty knows where to take it to. Well, go to them. I hope it'll rain to-morrow,'

When Old Wheels was in his room again, it was natural that his thoughts should dwell much on the conversation that had taken place between himself and Lily. It brought the past before him, and he was painfully startled by the resemblance which the present crisis in the life of his darling bore to that other event in the life of her mother which had wrecked the happiness of that unhappy woman. He opened the cupboard, and saw the little iron box. Very sad were the thoughts it suggested as he brought it to the table and opened it. There was a little money in it, sufficient for

a few weeks' expenses of their humble home; two or three mementos of Lily, such as a piece of ribbon and a flower she had worn in her hair; and some old letters and papers, worn and faded. He took them from the box, and sadly read one and another. Among them were letters from Lily's father to her mother during their days of courtship; and certain terms of expression in them brought to him the remembrance of sentiments almost similarly expressed by Alfred. The same vague declarations of being able to make large sums of money by unexplained means; the same selfishness, the same boastfulness, were there embodied. But not the same remorse which Alfred had already experienced; that was to come afterwards, and the despair which ever accompanies it. We were happy, then, my daughter and I,' the old man murmured; 'happy before he came. My daughter's life might not have ended as it did, in misery; might not have been passed, as it was, in miserable repinings. He brought a blight upon us.' And then came the thought, 'Like father, like son." He paced the room with disturbed steps. 'Alfred's father,' he thought, 'wrecked the happiness of the woman who loved him, who trusted implicitly in him-wrecked the happiness of my daughter, who once was as bright as my darling Lily. And how she changed under the consequence of his vice and his folly! How she drooped, and drooped, until life became torture! As she trusted him and believed in him, and sacrificed herself for him, so Lily trusts and believes and is ready to sacrifice herself for Alfred. Shall I allow her to do this, blindly? The end would not be the same, for Lily could not live through it. How can I save my darling? Would it not be better to inflict a sharp pain

upon her now than to see her walk blindly, confidingly, lovingly, to a desolate future?' At this point of his musings, he heard the streetdoor open and shut, and heard a stumbling step in the passage below. Looking over the papers in the iron box, he came upon two which he opened and read. They were the last two documents connected with the career of Lily's father. One was a full quittance for a sum of money which the unhappy man had embezzled; the wording of the other was as follows:

'In consideration of my fatherin-law paying the money due to Mr. James Creamwell, which I have wrongfully used, I solemnly promise not to trouble my wife with my presence as long as I live, and not to make myself known to my meet by any chance. For the wrong children in the future, should we that I have done, I humbly ask their forgiveness.

"RICHARD MANNING.'

'He has kept his word,' mused Old Wheels; 'from that time I have never seen him, never heard of him. I have wondered often if he is alive. No one but I have ever read this paper, unless Alfred, when he took the money from this box-- But no; he could have had no thought for anything but his unhappy purpose.'

Old Wheels was interrupted in his musings by the whining of a dog at the door. "That's Snap's voice,' he said, and going to the door, he saw the faithful dog waiting for him. Snap, directly he saw the old man, looked into his face appealingly, and walked towards the stairs. Old Wheels, taking the candle, followed the dog downstairs, and found Jim Podmore asleep at the bottom. Snap, having fulfilled his mission, waited patiently for the old man to act.

'Come, Mr. Podmore,' said Old

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