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IN THE STREET.

CALAIS.

Ir must needs be a hostile kind of a world, when the buyer, (if it be but of a sorry post-chaise) cannot go forth with the seller thereof into the street, to terminate the difference betwixt them, but he instantly falls into the same frame of mind, and views his conventionist with the same sort of eye, as if he was going along with him to Hyde-park-corner to fight a duel. For my own part, being but a poor swordsman, and no way a match for Monsieur Dessein, I felt the rotation of all the movements within me, to which the situation is incident-I looked at Mons. Dessein through and throngh-eyed him as he walked along in profile-then en face thought he looked like a Jew-then a Turk-disliked his wig-cursed him by my gods-wished him at the devil

-And is all this to be lighted up in the heart, for a beggarly account of three or four louis-d'ors, which is the most I can be over-reached in?-Base passion! said I, turning myself about, as a man naturally does upon a sudden reverse of sentiment-base ungentle passion! thy hand is against every man, and every man's hand against thee-Heaven forbid! said she, raising her hand up to her forehead, for I had turned full in front upon the lady whom I had seen in conference with the monk-she had followed us unperceived-Heaven forbid indeed! said I, offering her my own-she had a black pair of silk gloves, open only at the thumb and two fore-fingers, so accepted it without reserve-and I led her up to the door of the remise.

Monsieur Dessein had diabled the key above fifty times before he found out he had come with a wrong one in his hand; we were as impatient as himself to have it opened: and so attentive to the obstacle, that I continued holding her hand, almost without knowing it, so that Mons. Dessein left us together, with her hand in mine, and with our faces turned towards the door of the remise, and said he would be back in five minutes.

Now a coloquy of five minutes in such a situation, is worth one of as many ages with your faces turned towards the street: in the latter case, 'tis drawn from the objects and occurrences without when your eyes are fixed upon a dead blank, you draw purely from yourselves. A silence of a single moment upon Monsieur Dessein's leaving us, had been fatal to the situation-she had infallibly turned about-so I begun the conversation instantly

-But what were the temptations (as I write not to apologize for the weaknesses of my heart in this tour, -but to give an account of them) shall be described with the same simplicity with which I felt them.

THE REMISE DOOR.

CALAIS.

WHEN I told the reader that I did not care to get out of the Desobligeante, because I saw the monk in close conference with a lady just arrived at the inn-I told him the whole truth; for I was full as much restrained by the appearance and figure of the lady he was talking to. Suspicion crossed my brain, and he was telling her what had passed; something jarred upon it within me I wished him at his convent.

When the heart flies out before the understanding, it saves the judgment a world of pains-I was certain she was of a better order of beings-however, I thought no more of her, but went on and wrote my preface.

The impression returned upon my encounter with her in the street; a guarded frankness with which she gave me her hand, shewed, I thought, her good education, and her good sense; and as I led her on, I felt a pleasurable ductility about her, which spread a calmness over all my spirits.

-Good God! how a man might lead such a creature as this round the world with him.

I had not yet seen her face-'twas not material; for the drawing was instantly set about, and long before we had got to the door of the remise, Fancy had finished the whole head, and pleased herself as much with its fitting her goddess, as if she had dived into the Tiber for it-but thou art a seduced, and a seducing slut; and albeit thou cheatest us seven times a day with thy pictures and images, yet with so many charms dost thou do it, and thou deckest out thy pictures in the shapes of so many angels of light, 'tis a shame to break with thee.

When we had got to the door of the remise, she withdrew her hand from across her forehead, and let me see the original-it was a face of about six and twenty-of a clear transparent brown, simply set off without rouge or powder-it was not critically handsome, but there was that in it, which, in the frame of mind I was in, attached me much more to it-it was

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interesting. I fancied it wore the characters of a widowed look, and in that state of its declension which had passed the first paroxysms of sorrow, and was quietly beginning to reconcile itself to its lossbut a thousand other distresses might have traced the same lines. I wished to know what they had beenand was ready to enquire (had the same bon ton of conversation permitted as in the days of Esdras)-What aileth thee? and why art thou disquieted? and why is thy understanding troubled?'-In a word, I felt benevolence for her and resolved some way or if not of

other to throw in my mite of courtesy service.

Such were my temptations and in this disposition to give way to them, was I left alone with the lady with her hand in mine, and with our faces both turned closer to the door of the remise than what was absolutely necessary.

THE REMISE DOOR.

CALAIS.

THIS certainly, fair lady! said I, raising her hand up a little lightly as I began, must be one of Fortune's whimsical doings; to take two utter strangers by their hands of different sexes, and perhaps from different corners of the globe, and in one moment place them together in such a cordial situation as Friendship herself could scarce have achieved for them, had she projected it for a month.

-And your reflection upon it shews how much, Monsieur, she has embarrassed you by the adventure -When the situation is what we would wish, nothing is so ill-timed, as to hint at the circumstances which make it so. You thank Fortune; continued sheyou had reason-the heart knew it, and was satisfied; and who but an English philosopher would have sent notice of it to the brain to reverse the judgment?

In saying this she disengaged her hand with a look which I thought a sufficient commentary upon the text.

It is a miserable picture which I am going to give of the weakness of my heart, by owning that it suffered a pain, which worthier occasions could not have inflicted-I was mortified with the loss of her hand, and the manner in which I had lost it carried neither oil nor wine to the wound: I never felt the pain of a sleepish inferiority so miserable in my life.

The triumphs of a true feminine heart are short upon these discomfitures. In a very few seconds she laid her hand upon the cuff of my coat, in order to finish her reply; so some way or other, God knows how, I regained my situation.

-She had nothing to add.

I forthwith began to model a different conversation for the lady, thinking, from the spirit, as well as moral of this, that I had been mistaken in her character; but upon turning her face towards me, the spirit which had animated the reply was fled the muscles relaxed, and I beheld the same unprotected look of distress which first won me to her interest-Melancholy! to see such sprightliness the prey of sorrow -I pitied her from my soul; and though it may seem ridiculous enough to a torpid heart-I could have taken her into my arms, and cherished her, though it was in the open street, without blushing.

The pulsations of the arteries along my fingers pressing across her, told her what was passing within

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