380 O heart, lose not thy nature; let not ever
The soul of Nero enter this firm bosom;
Let me be cruel, not unnatural:
I will speak daggers to her, but use none;
My tongue and soul in this be hypocrites;
How in my words soever she be shent,
To give them seals never, my soul, consent!
Enter KING, ROSENCRANTZ, and GUILDENSTERN
King. I like him not, nor stands it safe with us
To let his madness range. Therefore prepare you,
I your commission will forthwith dispatch,
And he to England shall along with you;
The terms of our estate may not endure
Hazard so dangerous as doth hourly grow
Out of his lunacies.
We will ourselves provide:
Most holy and religious fear it is
To keep those many many bodies safe,
10 That live and feed upon your majesty.
Ros. The single and peculiar life is bound
With all the strength and armor of the mind
To keep itself from noyance; but much more
That spirit upon whose weal depend and rest
The lives of many. The cease of majesty
Dies not alone; but like a gulf doth draw
What's near it with it; it is a massy wheel,
Fixed on the summit of the highest mount,
To whose huge spokes ten thousand lesser things
Are mortised and adjoined; which, when it falls,
Each small annexment, petty consequence,
Attends the boisterous ruin. Never alone
Did the king sigh, but with a general groan.
King. Arm you, I pray you, to this speedy voyage; For we will fetters put upon this fear,
Which now goes too free-footed.
[Exeunt ROSENCRANTZ and GUILDENSTERN
Pol. My lord, he's going to his mother's closet; Behind the arras I'll convey myself
To hear the process; I'll warrant she'll tax him home; And, as you said, and wisely was it said,
'Tis meet that some more audience than a mother, Since nature makes them partial, should o'erhear
The speech, of vantage. Fare you well, my liege;
I'll call upon you e'er you go to bed,
And tell you what I know.
Oh, my offense is rank, it smells to heaven;
It hath the primal eldest curse upon't,
A brother's murder! - Pray can I not,
Though inclination be as sharp as will;
40 My stronger guilt defeats my strong intent,
And, like a man to double business bound,
I stand in pause where I shall first begin,
And both neglect. What if this cursed hand
Were thicker than itself with brother's blood,
Is there not rain enough in the sweet heavens
To wash it white as snow? Whereto serves mercy
But to confront the visage of offense?
And what's in prayer but this two-fold force,
To be forestallèd ere we come to fall,
50 Or pardoned being done? Then I'll look up;
My fault is past. But, oh, what form of prayer
Can serve my turn? Forgive me my foul murder?
That cannot be, since I am still possessed
Of those effects for which I did the murder,
My crown, mine own ambition, and my queen.
May one be pardoned and retain the offense?
In the corrupted currents of this world,
Offense's gilded hand may shove by justice,
And oft 'tis seen the wicked prize itself
Buys out the law; but 'tis not so above;
There, is no shuffling, there the action lies
In his true nature; and we ourselves compelled,
Even to the teeth and forehead of our faults
To give in evidence. What then? what rests?
Try what repentance can: what can it not?
Yet what can it when one can not repent?
O wretched state! O bosom black as death!
O limèd soul that, struggling to be free,
Art more engaged! Help, angels! make assay!
Bow, stubborn knees; and, heart with strings of steel, 70 Be soft as sinews of the new born babe!
Ham. Now might I do it pat, now he is praying;
And now I'll do't; - and so he goes to heaven;
And so am I revenged? That would be scanned:
A villain kills my father; and for that,
I, his sole son, do this same villain send
To heaven.
Oh, this is hire and salary, not revenge.
80 He took my father grossly, full of bread,
With all his crimes broad blown, as flush as May;
And how his audit stands who knows save heaven?
But in our circumstance and course of thought,
'Tis heavy with him; and am I then revenged,
To take him in the purging of his soul,
When he is fit and seasoned for his passage?
No.
Up, sword, and know thou a more horrid hent:
When he is drunk-asleep or in his rage;
90 At gaming, swearing; or about some act
That has no relish of salvation in't:
Then trip him, that his heels may kick at heaven;
And that his soul may be as damned, and black,
As hell, whereto it goes. My mother stays.
This physic but prolongs thy sickly days.
King. [Rising] My words fly up, my thoughts
Words without thoughts never to heaven go.
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